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Have I become a bad friend?
The other morning, I spent the first fifteen minutes of my day crying on the kitchen floor. When my son descended the stairs, I tried to...
Angry and exhausted.
Saturday, April 12th: I’m angry and exhausted. I was not supposed to be a single mom of an almost three-year-old son and the sole...
Grief
I still haven’t grieved my cousin yet. I’ve had zero time to mourn. I was focused on the HYROX races this past weekend. I distracted my...
I made it to 40.
So here I fucking am, my 40th year of revolving around the sun and almost 4 1/2 years exactly since I last sliced open my wrist. I’m a...
Will I ever overcome this rejection?
It’s been three weeks since my mom asked K‘s full name (I’m only using his first initial for sake of privacy) and she started verbally...
Labor & Birth Story
As I watched my friend’s pets over the weekend, I began to feel more uncomfortable each day and felt more pre-labor contractions. I went...
Due any day now
I started writing this post a month ago, and the title went from "Less than 4 weeks to go," to "Less than 2 weeks to go," down to "Less...
Reproducing woes
I’m thankful that I’ve never been someone who gets nauseous or vomits a lot when they get sick because I had zero morning sickness and...
Memorial Day
The stories of veterans losing their lives to suicide that NPR has been sharing recently have stopped me in my tracks. I tried to hold...
My Geriatric Ani and watching the Anime, Black Clover.
I dreamt last night that I had to evacuate and I sternly told the man, who I think was my boyfriend in the dream, that I would not leave...
A Personality Theory Does Not Define Your Worth
Did you know that Isabel Briggs Myers wrote a novel called, “Give Me Death,” that was virulently racist? Yes, she was one of the women...
A question I received yesterday:
"I just found out about you and was curious to know how long are your videos on your Onlyfans page are and do you respond to DMs?" First,...
Marilyn Monroe died when she was 36-years-old.
Here I am, turning thirty-six, childless, struggling to pay rent, approaching or already having a mid-life crisis, depending on the day. ...
We are eating plastic and fucking ourselves by not caring about climate change.
I watched the “David Attenborough: A Life on Our Planet” and “A Plastic Ocean” over the weekend, on Netflix, as I battled my allergies. I...
Mid-August fuckery
I am reminded always of how terrible a "writer" I am. I put "writer" in quotes because how can I call myself a writer when I hardly ever...
Late night Thursday thoughts
I learned a long time ago that I cannot trust other people, particularly entrusting them with my heart. I do not have the foundation of a...
I must rise above my pussy
A major flaw that I have is that I easily fall in love. It makes sense though; I’ve been searching for love since I was six. When the...
No AVN this year because no one knows who I am.
I'm composing this hungover, so let me just preface that. Not excruciatingly hungover, but tired, hungry, and dehydrated hungover. I'm...
"My shadow's the only one that walks beside me, My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating"
I drank bourbon last night, smoked weed, listened to Green Day and Story of the Year, sang and danced and talked myself out of my...



